Mad+Sad

I’m mad and I‘m sad!

I’m mad and I’m sad about stupid teenager stuff, and it make me upset that it seems like my parents don’t care enough to actually try and find out what it is that is wrong. Sure, they asked what was wrong, but I wasn’t about to just come out and say, because it’s hard. It’s hard to admit that I don’t have a lot of friends at school. Sure, when I refer to somebody I’m talking about, I usually say that they’re “a friend” but I don’t actually mean it.. The friends that I have, they’re absolutely amazing friends, but you know, as a typical teenager, I just want to be popular. I only have 4 friends at my school, maybe 5.… I just wish that I was part of the “in” crowd… Doesn’t every teenage girl? I want to be able to talk to people without acting weird or super shy.. I want to be able to be self confident… Not self conscious! I want to able to think that I’m pretty, or be told that I’m pretty and actually believe. I think that I am too guarded, I don’t know how to trust people all that well…. I need some thing to help me think good of myself.. I put on a show for everyone at school.. I act like I don’t care what people, but I do! I really do care! I like to think that when people whisper about me, it’s good and positive things.. Not bad and negative.. I want to pretty, popular, and I want to be liked as a person.. Is that too much to ask?